Uncertain

The sister that hates me called yesterday. I was washing dishes when Nick told me her name was on the caller id. I dropped the dishes, dried my hands and ran to the phone. I feared that something was deathly wrong, we haven't spoken to each other in at least 9 months...exceptions being the occasional put down.

She called to say that Karate Kid was playing on tv and that she was thinking of me. We used to watch that movie a lot as kids. We would even play Karate Kid in our back. Wax off and on, painting fences, drop kicking each other and the like. This is all well and good, but she has pulled this before. I am so aprehensive to be excited or feel good about a possible relationship rebuild that it induces fear. So many times in the past has she wheeled me in, only to stab me in the back from close range, allowing it to hurt that much more.

I hope it's the real deal. The simple fact that she called me is a big step. I'm all for it, it's a stress that should not be on the family. I hope it all works out, I hope we can break tradition.